The morning after they were gone, I woke up before the alarm.
For a moment, I forgot.
That soft, merciful second before reality remembers you.
Then the quiet rushed in.
Not peaceful quiet. Not the kind you choose. This was a hollow quiet, the kind that presses against your ears and makes you aware of every empty corner. I lay still, staring at the ceiling, waiting for the familiar sounds that never came. No nails clicking down the hallway. No heavy sigh from Milo shifting his weight. No soft thump of Bruno jumping off the couch to follow me.
My body expected them even when my mind already knew.
I swung my legs over the side of the bed and immediately stepped where Milo’s water bowl used to be. My foot stopped mid air, confused. Muscle memory is cruel that way. It keeps loving long after it should know better.
The kitchen felt wrong.
Too clean. Too organized. Their bowls were gone, washed and stacked neatly in a cabinet I had not opened yet. The floor beneath the counter looked bare without Bruno’s crumbs scattered like proof of life. I poured coffee and caught myself glancing toward the corner where Milo would sit, watching intently, hoping something might fall.
Nothing did.
I carried my mug into the living room and sat on the couch where we had said goodbye. The spot beside me still smelled faintly of warm fur. I pressed my palm there without thinking and felt my chest tighten all over again.
Grief does not arrive all at once.
It comes in waves that knock the breath out of you when you least expect it.
The first few days passed in a blur.
People reached out with kind messages. Friends said they were sorry. Some shared stories of their own losses. I appreciated every word, yet answering felt impossible. How do you explain the silence left behind by two lives that shaped your daily rhythm for years?
It was not just losing them.
It was losing the structure they gave to time itself.
Morning used to begin with wagging tails and impatient stares. Evenings ended with the weight of two bodies pressed against our legs. Our days had been measured in walks and feedings and bathroom breaks and routines we never realized were holding us together.
Now the hours stretched too wide.
I kept catching myself listening.
Listening for nothing.
Alex tried to be strong for both of us. I could see it in the way he cleaned the yard too thoroughly, in how he organized drawers that did not need organizing. We moved around each other gently, like people sharing fragile ground.
At night, we lay in bed and stared at the ceiling, both pretending to sleep.
At some point, he reached for my hand and held it tightly, like he was afraid that if he let go of one more living thing, the day might swallow him whole.
Neither of us said anything.
We did not need to.
On the fourth day, I finally picked up their leashes.
They were still hanging by the door, loops touching, exactly the way we had always left them. Milo’s worn leather strap was soft from years of use. Bruno’s nylon leash still smelled faintly like grass and sunshine.
I stood there longer than I meant to.
Then I sat on the floor and cried the kind of cry that empties you out. The ugly kind. The kind you cannot control.
I cried because I missed the way Milo leaned into my leg when he was tired.
I cried because I missed Bruno’s happy spins when he knew we were going somewhere.
I cried because loving them had been easy, but losing them felt impossible.
When the tears finally slowed, I noticed something unexpected.
I was smiling.
Not because it hurt less.
But because every tear was tied to a memory that had once been joy.
That realization changed something in me.
Grief, I learned, is not proof of loss.
It is proof of love that had nowhere else to go.
A week later, I dreamed of them.
Milo was running again, legs strong and steady, ears flapping like they used to when he was younger. Bruno chased him, barking joyfully, not the strained sound from his final days but the full, reckless bark of a dog who feels nothing but life.
They ran until they disappeared into tall grass.
I woke with tears on my pillow and peace in my chest.
For the first time since they left, the ache loosened just slightly.
The house still feels empty.
It probably always will.
But I am learning that empty does not mean abandoned.
It means something important once lived here.
There are still reminders everywhere.
The worn patch of carpet where they wrestled.
The scratch marks near the back door.
The window where Milo liked to watch the world.
These are not things I want to erase.
They are evidence.
Proof that joy once took up space.
Sometimes I catch myself laughing at memories out loud. The way Bruno stole socks and paraded them proudly. The way Milo pretended not to hear commands when he decided he was done for the day.
I used to think laughter meant moving on.
Now I know it means carrying them forward.
People ask if I will ever get another dog.
I do not know the answer.
Not yet.
Right now, my heart is still full of Milo and Bruno. There is no empty space to fill because love does not vanish when bodies do. It stays. It settles. It waits.
Maybe someday, when the silence feels softer, another pair of paws will walk into this house.
Not to replace them.
Nothing could.
But to remind us that love does not end just because one chapter closes.
Until then, we learn how to live with the quiet.
We learn how to breathe around the missing.
We learn that grief is not something to overcome, but something to carry gently, like a fragile gift left behind by those who loved us best.
Milo and Bruno taught us loyalty without condition.
Joy without reason.
Comfort without words.
Even now, they are still teaching us.
They are teaching us how deeply we can love.
And how deeply we can survive that love when it is gone.
Somewhere beyond what I can see, I like to believe they are together.
Side by side.
As they always were.
And here, in this quieter house, we are learning to live again with the echoes of their footsteps guiding us forward.
Not away from them.
But with them.
Always.
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